Jeannie's Thoughts

What was I thinking?

Years of putting myself around people,

places and things that did NOT serve me.

Embarrassing situations I've put myself in time & time again.

Never to be admitted or acknowledged in any way because the embarrassment was too great.

What made me think being Queen ding-a-ling of the towns dirtiest drug bar was something special??????

Surrounded by drunks (like me),

Drugs,

Liars,

Cheaters,

DRAMA,

Chaos,

And more.

So much drama.

THIS was my life?

THIS was my “Normal?”

FOR YEARS!!!!

This is what I surrounded myself with,

What I chose every day.

What was I thinking?????

Was I so afraid to be a small unknown fish in a big pond,

That I had to be a well known fish in the mud?

The lotus flower reflects a spiritual awakening! Through mud to beauty.

A reminder that in a hard world,

you too can grow through dark times and difficulties.

No matter how muddy your surroundings,

you too can bloom again.

We DO deserve better.

We deserve to act better!

We deserve to BE better!

We deserve to be surrounded by better!

We shall not regret the past,

nor wish to shut the door on it, because we would not have many of the things we have right now have it not been for the past.

Today,

together,

we WILL be better.

we will do better!

we will choose better!

we will act better!

It is my wish for myself and you to live like the lotus flower….

To not settle for the muddy water but to dig ourselves out to bloom to be the best we can be each day.

Hitting my bottom could have been even lower & will await my arrival if I so choose the wrong path again. I do have much to be grateful for each day and I see that now that I have dug myself out of the mud.

Today,

I welcome change.

For I am the lotus flower.

~JM